What have I done? Is it too late?

March 16, 2010 admin 8 comments

am 22 weeks pregnant with my first child. I have made some very poor choices. I have been smoking meth 1-2 times a month for a couple days at a time. I know i am a poor excuse for a person and used very bad judgement. I was being selfish and the addiction, which is hard for me to say cause I never thought I was, but putting my child at risk makes me realize I am, was to strong for me. I recently met up with someone I haven’t seen in a long time and realized she is strung out and shooting meth up and is 2 months pregnant. I got a serious reality wake up check. I am very scared I have already done irrepairable damage to my baby and will not touch it again I can gauranteee it. My boyfriend has no idea i have been using, but knows of past use. I realized today that i have a very loving relaitonship with someone who loves me very much and have been blessed with a gift, my baby. I fear though I have already ruined it all. I would be devastated if I lost either of them. If i don’t touch the stuff at all ever again is there any way someone could find out I have done it during my pregnancy, if so how? Is it too late for me? I am willing to do anything not to lose my family!!!!! I know i should have thought about it sooner and thats my fault. I was blinded by the drug. someone please help me. tell me what to do. I am normally a very responsible person and have been through alot in my life. I know better than this and realized today this is not me at all. This is not my life. Is there any way i can move on from this without anyone knowing of my poor judgement??? If my boyfriend found out i ever touched the stuff again he would leave me, which i don’t blame, but I don’t want to lose the best things in my life. Can I fix this??? someone please help!!!!!

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Written by MimmiDee about 2 years ago.

Calm down.

You have done the right thing, by realizing what you have done has been wrong.
Get your baby thoroughly checked out and see if everything is ok, and from now on, no drugs. Just eat as healthy as possible. And seek some help, and support for your addiction.

That’s the only thing I can suggest to you.
Written by Reagan about 2 years ago.

The first 12 weeks are the most important because that is when the baby is developing, therefore there is a high likelihood that the baby will have either physical or developmental defects. Perhaps you should have given up the meth BEFORE getting knocked up, now you need to live with the consequences of your actions. I highly recommend you consider adoption, there is no reason that child should have to suffer any more with a drug-addicted mother. Do you have a job? A way to support this child? A house? Health insurance? I doubt it, and my tax dollars should not have to raise this child. Adoption can be a wonderful option to consider…
Written by The Beauty Brigade! about 2 years ago.

Eat three whole nutmegs.
Written by Maritza about 2 years ago.

you need to talk to ure doctor about this so they can check to see if ure baby is ok. but since u did meth during ure first trimester there is a chance of ure baby been born with birth defects. if i was u i would talk to my doctor nd never do meth again!!!! thats the only thing u can do at this moment
Written by Carter's Mama Apr.6,10 about 2 years ago.

First off, calm down. Your baby can be fine. Probably is. Since you were using to begin with and not using every day the baby is getting the drug in his/her system, but it was part of the environment to begin with so it’s not as harmful. Still REALLY harmful though, don’t think otherwise. By now you should have had your screens and should know if the baby is growing okay. Don’t think you’re selfish either. Any addiction is hard to overcome. Better late than never. I used to work with girls strung out on that stuff and to be able to quit on your own is truly commendable. I know, don’t worry. If you do quit now then there wont be any of the drug left in the meconium (the baby’s first stool). If you keep on though, you do risk having something wrong with your baby and having the drug in baby’s system. I’m glad you saw the light, but now you need to get down to business. Start eating right, exercising, spending time with your man, taking your vitamins and just all around take care of yourself and your family. Anytime you feel like you want to use or that one more time won’t hurt anything remind yourself of the family your building and realize that you don’t want to put that in jeopardy.
Written by shhgirl about 2 years ago.

“beauty brigade” is a freakin idiot. Don’t listen to her.

From here on out, eat healthy drink lots of water and get plenty of rest.

You may have already caused damage to your baby, but just make sure not to cause any more.
Written by Due June 20th! about 2 years ago.

I would suggest start eating healthy and taking care of yourself! Take vitamins! To give your baby a fighting chance maybe some counseling? Tell your doctor so he can help you!!!!
Written by Ckiki about 2 years ago.

aww im praying for you. Dont be hard on yourself there’s nothing God cant do. Best of luck xoxox

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