Confidential Drug Rehabilitation

First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
If anyone has any instant messengers please add me so i can just talk to someone…. My msn is jeremyb6@hotmail.com yahoo is topdawg_9
and aol/aim is tpdwg7

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
If anyone has any instant messengers please add me so i can just talk to someone…. My msn is jeremyb6@hotmail.com yahoo is topdawg_9
and aol/aim is tpdwg7

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
I’m not using this addiction as a crutch, and its like my parents don’t want me out of the house. I have screwed everything up like school and jobs i have had because of this problem and now it is time to put it down and start over. My family is a well known family around the county, its a very small county though, but my mom is an elected official of the county, she’s probably the most respected lady in our county. I would love to get out on my own right now but i just dont know where to start. I have a nice 03 mustang but it has some problems that need to be fixed and i don’t have a dime to my name to fix it. I have to have that before i can go to work anywhere or anything. I just keep on digging myself a deeper hole because of this addiction. But i’m sooo ready to give it up and start my life. I was such a respected guy, a very likeable person, and, not trying to sound conceited, but a really good looking guy. I’ve had alot of girls in the past, but i’ve gone to hell becauseofthis.
If anyone has any instant messengers please add me so i can just talk to someone…. My msn is jeremyb6@hotmail.com yahoo is topdawg_9
and aol/aim is tpdwg7
alright….i figured i’d add a lil more for Aldo4olives and try to explain a lil more i guess….Yes my mother is a great mother, she is, like i said probably the most respected woman in the county. She is an elected official and runs for office every 4 years and has been in office for the past 20 and only 1 time has she had anyone even try to run against her. She was chosen as grand marshall of the xmas parade this past xmas….She would do anything to help me, and tonight she came in and told me that Monday she is gonna take me to a dr to get the help i need. She just says my dad doesn’t think i’m serious about all this, he says i’m just saying all this crap to get them to feel sorry for me and pay me out of debt. It is hard to get a job here, we have the highest unemployment rate in the state. I live in a very small place, the closests places with rehabs or meetings or anything of that nature is about 2 hours away.
My dad does want me sittin at home, he said that way he knows what i’m doing. He threatens to have me picked up by the cops every time i try to leave the house for anything basically. Anyone who calls the house for me, even if it was like the best kid in town, he starts questioning them and pretty much embarrasses the shit out of me…My friend came today to get me so we could go fishing and when he got out of the car to walk up to the door he said he turned right back around and waited in the car because of my dad. He heard him cussing and yelling at me pretty loudly and bad. He heard him calling me a fuck up and a dopehead and saying the only dr who would prescribe a pill to quit an addiction is a pill pushing dr and anyone who has told me that stuff would help me is obviously a pill popping dopehead or some pill pusher trying to get me to buy another pill.But anyways i’m hoping to stop all this,my mom told me tonight monday we’re going so im sooexcited about that! thanks everyone!!

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
I’m not using this addiction as a crutch, and its like my parents don’t want me out of the house. I have screwed everything up like school and jobs i have had because of this problem and now it is time to put it down and start over. My family is a well known family around the county, its a very small county though, but my mom is an elected official of the county, she’s probably the most respected lady in our county. I would love to get out on my own right now but i just dont know where to start. I have a nice 03 mustang but it has some problems that need to be fixed and i don’t have a dime to my name to fix it. I have to have that before i can go to work anywhere or anything. I just keep on digging myself a deeper hole because of this addiction. But i’m sooo ready to give it up and start my life. I was such a respected guy, a very likeable person, and, not trying to sound conceited, but a really good looking guy. I’ve had alot of girls in the past, but i’ve gone to hell becauseofthis.
If anyone has any instant messengers please add me so i can just talk to someone…. My msn is jeremyb6@hotmail.com yahoo is topdawg_9
and aol/aim is tpdwg7
alright….i figured i’d add a lil more for Aldo4olives and try to explain a lil more i guess….Yes my mother is a great mother, she is, like i said probably the most respected woman in the county. She is an elected official and runs for office every 4 years and has been in office for the past 20 and only 1 time has she had anyone even try to run against her. She was chosen as grand marshall of the xmas parade this past xmas….She would do anything to help me, and tonight she came in and told me that Monday she is gonna take me to a dr to get the help i need. She just says my dad doesn’t think i’m serious about all this, he says i’m just saying all this crap to get them to feel sorry for me and pay me out of debt. It is hard to get a job here, we have the highest unemployment rate in the state. I live in a very small place, the closests places with rehabs or meetings or anything of that nature is about 2 hours away.
My dad does want me sittin at home, he said that way he knows what i’m doing. He threatens to have me picked up by the cops every time i try to leave the house for anything basically. Anyone who calls the house for me, even if it was like the best kid in town, he starts questioning them and pretty much embarrasses the shit out of me…My friend came today to get me so we could go fishing and when he got out of the car to walk up to the door he said he turned right back around and waited in the car because of my dad. He heard him cussing and yelling at me pretty loudly and bad. He heard him calling me a fuck up and a dopehead and saying the only dr who would prescribe a pill to quit an addiction is a pill pushing dr and anyone who has told me that stuff would help me is obviously a pill popping dopehead or some pill pusher trying to get me to buy another pill.But anyways i’m hoping to stop all this,my mom told me tonight monday we’re going so im sooexcited about that! thanks everyone!!

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My STB ex is a closet alcoholic…I enabled him to hide his drinking. I confronted him several times and got lots of promises..not to quit, but to “slow down.” I fell into the trap of counting cans, dumping out bottles of liquor…trying to make him feel guilty, etc. I finally got tired of the two and three times a week binges, eventually became completely disgusted with him…particularly when he would become so intoxicated he would urinate in the bed…and sleep in it!! Or on the couch…or in our child’s bed, one particular evening…and on and on. When our kids (5 and 8) began to notice his behavior, I had HAD IT…we are now separated…because I never went to any of our friends about it..(too embarrassed) he says I am lying about everything…and now is making up stories about how I have stolen money from him, how I am manipulating the kids, how I have had several affairs…etc. He twists the truth and plays the victim very well. SOME of our friends see through it and are very supportive of me…I don’t have a history of doing ANY of the things that he claims…and I work with children so I KNOW BETTER than to do something so negative to my kids….so his stories are NOT believable…HOWEVER…there are some “friends” who have actually confronted me about some of his stories! ….or that say how “ridiculous” my claim of is alcoholism is because they “never saw it.” My daughter is currently seeing a counselor because of the things that “daddy says about mommy”…she says she knows these things aren’t true and has even told him that , but she is getting help in dealing with him….taking her into a bathroom and questioning her…counting to three when she holds her hands over her ears…telling her that I am a liar…..etc. I just want to SCREAM the truth to some of these people…but have maintained a low profile and continued to keep my mouth shut. HOWEVER…it is getting harder and harder!! Any advice? Anyone else dealing with this kind of thing? How do I not let it bother me so much?? I am praying that God will watch over my kids hearts when they are with him, and he has even been told BY HIS LAWYER to stop the negative talk about me…but he continues! How do I get him to stop?

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
I dont think he would care at all, he offered to come in and sit down and talk to my dad about all this but i just know how my dad is…..I dont know how i’m gonna come up with the money either, the first office visit is $300…..I just wish i could get my dad to lay off me and quit talking to me like i’m some piece of s***. It honestly just hurts so bad, to have him do me this way.

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That question shocked me. An AA sponsor explained that his sponsee confessed to killing a person while driving drunk. He asked whether he should turn him in. All the AA people said NOT to turn him in while non-AA affiliated people said to definately turn him in.

This goes on a LOT in AA. I used to go to meetings. I have witnessed similar things.

Why do they have such a skewed moral system? Legally, the sponsor/sponsee relationship has no priveledge of confidentiality.

I think AAers put sobriety above everything else. The point of confessing wrongs is not to be a better person and ease the pain of victims, it is to feel less guilty so you stay sober….

What would you do in his situation? Please tell me of you are an AA member or not…..

Why do they think this way??

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That question shocked me. An AA sponsor explained that his sponsee confessed to killing a person while driving drunk. He asked whether he should turn him in. All the AA people said NOT to turn him in while non-AA affiliated people said to definately turn him in.

This goes on a LOT in AA. I used to go to meetings. I have witnessed similar things.

Why do they have such a skewed moral system? Legally, the sponsor/sponsee relationship has no priveledge of confidentiality.

I think AAers put sobriety above everything else. The point of confessing wrongs is not to be a better person and ease the pain of victims, it is to feel less guilty so you stay sober….

What would you do in his situation? Please tell me of you are an AA member or not…..

Why do they think this way??

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