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I’m not even 18 yet and I’m having trouble with my money. I have spent thousands of dollars on clothes in the last year – EVERY single one of my paychecks has gone to nothing but clothes, shoes, makeup, purses, jewelry, etc. and I can’t help it! Every time I go shopping I ALWAYS spend at least $100 and in the last week I bought a pair of 7 For All Mankind jeans, along with True Religions and Guess jeans too. Not to mention a bedspread from Victoria’s Secret and tons of shirts from a new store. (Everything I own HAS to be brand name.) I have even started to borrow money from my mom, and I don’t know what to do; my boyfriend tells me to buy stuff along with my mom and then after I buy it, I get told to stop spending money (by my boyfriend). I went to Guess a few days ago, tried on so many cute things I realllllly want but would total almost $400. My boyfriend even took away my card but gave it back later. PLEASE HELP!!!

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I started having panic attacks a year ago (first week back at 2nd semester freshman year) and I was put on ativan(to stop my panic attacks) and celexa (which made it worse) then switched to zoloft maybe it helped maybe not. I don’t really know because I started taking mass amounts of oxycontin everyday which seemed to mask alot of my symptoms some of the time and other times it made me crazy…especially with the withdrawls. I have been mostly sober for about a month( i used a few times since then. nothing crazy. In the last month I have seen a therapist for my mental stuff, a counsler for my drug stuff, and a psychiatrist for medication for my mental stuff. I am now on 150mg zoloft, 900 mg neurontin, 50 mg serequel, and 1 mg ativan as needed with my panic attacks. So far I can’t tell if it’s working just makes me kinda tired, Just wondering if anyone has had sucess with this drug combo or similar to it. Or what combo worked for you. Any suggestions how to deal with my panic attacks without meds?
Just curious I know everyone responds to medication differently.

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Take a look at:

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AnMlbZzjvt6eMnXbEauEcqHsy6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20100227051415AAx6BAx

That’s my basic plot.

My Characters:
Chris – a severely dyslexic teenage boy, who suffers from huge mood swings. He blames his behaviour problems on the accident, and since then has become very protective of his brother, as he knows he is a target for casual cruelty. He is attracted to means of escape, which is why Landon’s offer seems like a beacon of hope to him; however he becomes trapped amidst the gang war and finds himself doing terrible things that he never thought he could ever do.

Landon (gang leader) – an incredibly manipulative teenage boy, who has always been given whatever he wants. He had a harsh childhood, and frequently witnessed his mother being beaten and raped by his stepfather. Since then, he has become very bitter, however he is very careful to hide it. He appears cool and calm on the surface; however he has surprising anger outbursts. Landon is an incredibly secretive and a dark character; he enjoys the thrill and fear that accompanies his name – that’s all he lives for.

David – left mentally retarded after an accident. He constantly strives to be like his brother, and doing so gets him beaten up by bullies. He is very easily manipulated and simplistic: he leans further and further towards Landon’s gang as Chris’s aggressive behaviour gets worse.

Evie – a very naive girl of about thirteen/fourteen, who has recently been introduced to drugs. She is very immature and vain, and is HIV positive and pregnant with Landon’s baby, however she has just given him HIV, which is why she is stabbed for revenge. She tries very hard to be different, however becomes just like many other girls in her situation, and is suffering from intense loneliness.

Ryan – Chris’s best friend, who is neglected as Chris delves deeper into the gang culture. He can be very cruel, however he is not the sort of person to do terrible things; he enjoys casual name-calling, but does not do it for any personal gain. Chris’s desertion, however, causes him to become very malicious; he is the one who suggests hurting Landon’s sister.

Martine (David and Chris’s mother) – a recovering alcoholic, who prides herself in being quite eccentric but can be very childish at times. She seeks faults in others constantly, though it is not something she intends to do. David’s accident brought her out of her alcoholism; however she has dark days frequently and is often desperately lonely and isolated. She now helps out at the Alcoholic centre.

Erin – a desperately unhappy teenager (about seventeen) who is Landon’s current girlfriend. She feels incredibly isolated – she cannot break up with him, because she knows how erratic his mood is, however if she stays with him long enough to tire of her, she doesn’t know what he’ll do.

****If you’ve read all that, thank you so much. Should I write in first or third person?

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Ok I’m 14 and have been going out with my first Boyfriend, who is also 14, since about March 2008. I’m Hispanic and he’s African American. I love him VERY much. We always talk on the phone ’till 1am even on school days. He has always been very quiet and looks very depressed sometimes. I always ask if he’s alright, and he always says ‘yea’, so I never really thought anything of it. But one night while talking on the phone with me, he just opened up to me that his Older Brother, Mom, and Dad do drugs. I was so shocked that I began tearing up, I tried to be strong but I could hear his quiver and then he began to cry and so I did the only thing I could think of; and cried on the phone with him. Every time I tried to calm down, more tears would come. We cried there for a good 20 minutes and in the middle of crying he told me that he wouldn’t know what to do without me and that he loved me and I told him the same. Once we finally calmed down he told me to promise never to tell anyone at all what he told me, and I did. But now I need help, I keep telling him to tell someone so they can help but he says he’s scared what will happen to them. I really don’t want to bring it up because I’m scared of seeing him like that again. I’ve been trying to go on the internet and search about going to rehab vs. going to jail but I still kind of confused on what the rules in Georgia are like for drug addicts. If anyone has any help to offer, PLEASE tell me. And Thank You for taking the time to read this.
I’m sorry, I know I must sound really stupid and overreacting. But this is the first time that anything like this (involving drugs) has happened before and I was tired of holding it in. So I’ll try to calm down a bit. Oh, and Thank You to everyone who answered back! They are helping me see how retarded I sounded and calmed me down so I can figure all this out. THANKS AGAIN!!

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
If anyone has any instant messengers please add me so i can just talk to someone…. My msn is jeremyb6@hotmail.com yahoo is topdawg_9
and aol/aim is tpdwg7

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
If anyone has any instant messengers please add me so i can just talk to someone…. My msn is jeremyb6@hotmail.com yahoo is topdawg_9
and aol/aim is tpdwg7

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
I’m not using this addiction as a crutch, and its like my parents don’t want me out of the house. I have screwed everything up like school and jobs i have had because of this problem and now it is time to put it down and start over. My family is a well known family around the county, its a very small county though, but my mom is an elected official of the county, she’s probably the most respected lady in our county. I would love to get out on my own right now but i just dont know where to start. I have a nice 03 mustang but it has some problems that need to be fixed and i don’t have a dime to my name to fix it. I have to have that before i can go to work anywhere or anything. I just keep on digging myself a deeper hole because of this addiction. But i’m sooo ready to give it up and start my life. I was such a respected guy, a very likeable person, and, not trying to sound conceited, but a really good looking guy. I’ve had alot of girls in the past, but i’ve gone to hell becauseofthis.
If anyone has any instant messengers please add me so i can just talk to someone…. My msn is jeremyb6@hotmail.com yahoo is topdawg_9
and aol/aim is tpdwg7
alright….i figured i’d add a lil more for Aldo4olives and try to explain a lil more i guess….Yes my mother is a great mother, she is, like i said probably the most respected woman in the county. She is an elected official and runs for office every 4 years and has been in office for the past 20 and only 1 time has she had anyone even try to run against her. She was chosen as grand marshall of the xmas parade this past xmas….She would do anything to help me, and tonight she came in and told me that Monday she is gonna take me to a dr to get the help i need. She just says my dad doesn’t think i’m serious about all this, he says i’m just saying all this crap to get them to feel sorry for me and pay me out of debt. It is hard to get a job here, we have the highest unemployment rate in the state. I live in a very small place, the closests places with rehabs or meetings or anything of that nature is about 2 hours away.
My dad does want me sittin at home, he said that way he knows what i’m doing. He threatens to have me picked up by the cops every time i try to leave the house for anything basically. Anyone who calls the house for me, even if it was like the best kid in town, he starts questioning them and pretty much embarrasses the shit out of me…My friend came today to get me so we could go fishing and when he got out of the car to walk up to the door he said he turned right back around and waited in the car because of my dad. He heard him cussing and yelling at me pretty loudly and bad. He heard him calling me a fuck up and a dopehead and saying the only dr who would prescribe a pill to quit an addiction is a pill pushing dr and anyone who has told me that stuff would help me is obviously a pill popping dopehead or some pill pusher trying to get me to buy another pill.But anyways i’m hoping to stop all this,my mom told me tonight monday we’re going so im sooexcited about that! thanks everyone!!

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
I’m not using this addiction as a crutch, and its like my parents don’t want me out of the house. I have screwed everything up like school and jobs i have had because of this problem and now it is time to put it down and start over. My family is a well known family around the county, its a very small county though, but my mom is an elected official of the county, she’s probably the most respected lady in our county. I would love to get out on my own right now but i just dont know where to start. I have a nice 03 mustang but it has some problems that need to be fixed and i don’t have a dime to my name to fix it. I have to have that before i can go to work anywhere or anything. I just keep on digging myself a deeper hole because of this addiction. But i’m sooo ready to give it up and start my life. I was such a respected guy, a very likeable person, and, not trying to sound conceited, but a really good looking guy. I’ve had alot of girls in the past, but i’ve gone to hell becauseofthis.
If anyone has any instant messengers please add me so i can just talk to someone…. My msn is jeremyb6@hotmail.com yahoo is topdawg_9
and aol/aim is tpdwg7
alright….i figured i’d add a lil more for Aldo4olives and try to explain a lil more i guess….Yes my mother is a great mother, she is, like i said probably the most respected woman in the county. She is an elected official and runs for office every 4 years and has been in office for the past 20 and only 1 time has she had anyone even try to run against her. She was chosen as grand marshall of the xmas parade this past xmas….She would do anything to help me, and tonight she came in and told me that Monday she is gonna take me to a dr to get the help i need. She just says my dad doesn’t think i’m serious about all this, he says i’m just saying all this crap to get them to feel sorry for me and pay me out of debt. It is hard to get a job here, we have the highest unemployment rate in the state. I live in a very small place, the closests places with rehabs or meetings or anything of that nature is about 2 hours away.
My dad does want me sittin at home, he said that way he knows what i’m doing. He threatens to have me picked up by the cops every time i try to leave the house for anything basically. Anyone who calls the house for me, even if it was like the best kid in town, he starts questioning them and pretty much embarrasses the shit out of me…My friend came today to get me so we could go fishing and when he got out of the car to walk up to the door he said he turned right back around and waited in the car because of my dad. He heard him cussing and yelling at me pretty loudly and bad. He heard him calling me a fuck up and a dopehead and saying the only dr who would prescribe a pill to quit an addiction is a pill pushing dr and anyone who has told me that stuff would help me is obviously a pill popping dopehead or some pill pusher trying to get me to buy another pill.But anyways i’m hoping to stop all this,my mom told me tonight monday we’re going so im sooexcited about that! thanks everyone!!

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do you know anyone that has overcome a heavy, long term opiate addiction without methadone or something similar? Because i’m beginning to think it’s impossible.

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because the people I have to give this to dont know me. If you were running this program would you accept me back in? Is there anything I need to fix or is it simply just not good enough? Thanks to all who take the time to read and give me feedback. Ohh and if you dont know anything about this program you can look into it at this site hey it might even be a good idea for someone you know….

http://www.youthbuild.org/site/c.htIRI3P…

My name is Caylee George and I walked out on Youth Build my first day. I have never liked structure, anything with structure I fail. Out of this mistake I have realized, Youth Build has everything I want in my future. I want to be ok with commitment, stop being a quitter, and I want to have an idea. I went into Youth Build without an idea; I need Youth Build to help me figure out what I’m searching for in life because on my own it’s a nearly impossible task. I have never liked to reach for anything I just went along with the flow. When you have no willingness you have no chance. I’m done being stubborn. I’m more than ready and willing to just shut up, sit down, and listen. I will do whatever it takes to make it through and finish my best. This is similar to how it was when I was in rehab I went into it with nothing, I wasn’t ready and I had a bad attitude toward everything and everyone there because I thought my way was fine. But my way is wrong no matter how hard it is for me to admit it, it’s the truth. While I was in rehab a kid gave me advice saying I need to get through this for me and until I could do it for me, do it for my family because any day they could be gone forever and I need to make the best of this and go home and be there for my them, because the next time I see them it could be in a coffin. Once again I didn’t listen, a couple weeks after that the last time I saw my dad was in a coffin. He was on drugs and he was a quitter he hit rock bottom and shot him self. I want to be more than that I want to quit living like him and show my little brothers that you decide the out come of your own life and it doesn’t have to end up like dads. If accepted into Youth Build I would be coming in with a better idea of what I want out of it.
1. I want to be ok with structure, because its what I need.
2. I want to build a relationship with my family epically my brothers because they have enough people that fail them.
3. I want to stop using drugs to calm me down, give me something to do or just make it through the day. Because I don’t want to be dependent on them any more and I want to look and feel as healthy as I did when I was sober.
4. I want to be able to feel good at the end of the day, because at the end of all my days I worry about getting my next high tomorrow and ways to find money for it.
5. I want to have the skills it takes to get through anything in life, because my skills aren’t doing the trick.
6. I want to learn how to let go of the things that have happened to me and forgive the people that let me down because holding these grudges are making me an angry person and I want to feel normal.
7. I want to know what to put here…
I know I have what it takes to make it through I have some rough edges on me that need help. I realize that I can’t force anyone to let me back in all I can do is try. And if I don’t get accepted I have still learned a lesson during this. No body helped me walk out I did it on my own and it’s up to me to fix it. I completely understand what the rules were and they were made very clear to me, I’m asking for one more chance to show you how bad I really want this. I want your help to make a better life for myself as well as my family.
Sincerely,
Caylee George

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