Thanks for making me grow inhibited
With your implied insults about what you find sleazy.
Thanks for making my self-worth a little lower
By telling me i have it so easy,
Oh, and I remember when you told me
How it made you so happy to please me;
whatever…
I only know that changed the way that you see me.
Remember that I didn’t run out on you, ever,
Even when i needed to go.
I stayed even though you were slamming me
With words that marked me blow by blow.
Why do you think I would stick around
With so many fish in the sea?
Why do you think iI went to such lengths
To make sure you asked to marry me?
It was never because of the house or the gifts,
Even though they were quite nice to receive;
It wasn’t even your sex appeal
(though i know that is hard to believe)
If it was*, do you think I would be so calm
Now that it’s hard to get that close?
…and since we are on the subject,
That IS what hurts me the most…
I trust in your fidelity, I trust your values,
I know that you’ll take care of the necessities,
But I find myself doubting that you still love me
Now that you have nothing to say about the best of me.
You helped me stop degrading myself,
Cleansed, as it were, of that aforementioned ‘sleaze’
Hmmmm.( unlike most) you think i should be cleaning the floor
Every time you see me down on my knees.
*puzzled pause inserted here*
Oh, if that is wrong? well, why don’t you ever react?
To the signals my body is sending out
Why did you tell me not to dress like a stripper-
I got rid of of all that stuff out of respect-
But then I find out you are quite attracted
To some of the images that I once could produce.
It’s easy to see that by your browsing history…
(don’t say anything, I will only assume it is an excuse)
This is not, as it would seem, jealousy, love,
Rather desire to revel in the passion and pleasure
That we still can ignite upon occasion;
But you’ve got to ease up on the pressure…
*direct reference to intimate act implied*
I know you work hard and that I am work, too,
But you knew that and you used to take it in stride.
I have driven the equivalent of an interstate
Before I had you, I was just there for the ride.
I’ve been further by plane and by truth and, by the gods!
I can go further than you believe me capable of;
So keep an open mind, some faith and this truth:
I just need to be reminded that I’m loved.
I know secret powers lie within me, you see,
They were weapons; now they are your tools,
They don’t take batteries or power cords
i am the source of the fuel
a spark and a surge of that which you hold
in your virtually impenetrable red head
just might make all those parts move once more
and take us both someplace no mortal can tread
i know whatever you might say
will most likely not come out sounding right
but i am prepared to interpret the truth
and i might for once not let you make it a fight
you get my goat and you wound my pride
do you realize how i resist the urge to counterattack
and yes when you come at me with malice of forethought
i will spit preconditioned responses back
but the things that made the greatest impression on me
were delivered with your gentle strong arms
wrapped around my body, entering this scarred heart
that was when i was changed and i am sworn
to the vows that we spoke- though we both said them before
i for one never paid much heed to the words
for better or worse …til death do us part, or beyond
and now that bond needs to be resecured
i know it sounds trite but i’ll trust you to see
how much it means and give it heart and mind
i have never wanted monogamy with any other man
nor have i ever had a feeling so sublime
if i challenge you to another round will you play,
Will you give me one chance to get high score
You surge through my blood like some new drug
I’m hooked- but i don’t want to go to rehab, I want more!
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