Confidential Drug Rehabilitation

I joined Second Life (SL) almost a year ago, and from the first night I was hooked.
Now months later i am on sl on average 4-8 hours a day. I didn’t even know i HAD 4-8 disposable hours left to designate to gaming, but here i am. Hopelessly addicted.
The thing is, i’m a true misanthrope in every sense of the word and would hands down rather stay at home on any given day. Thats why SL is so great, I get all the bells & whistles of RL, but without all the bullshit and pretense.
On SL i (obvs) get to escape out of the rl for awhile, if it was possible, i would upload myself into the game forever, that’s how much i am realistically sick of living in the modern real world.
Not surpriisingly I suffer from depression + depression induced psychosis periodically, which definitely kills or seriously compromises by self-esteem and desire for social contact and simulation.
I love SL because i can control it, all aspects of it.
I can control my avatars mind. Something i can’t do for myself. And you wouldn’t believe the sense of beautiful hapiness that creates in me. Anyone with mental illness knows, the luxury of being in control of your thoughts, sights, smells, and sounds is something never to be taken for granted.

I think that i could live my whole life playing SL(or an simulation application) and be completely fine never having a RL lover. I would actually prefer that. I’m sure within the next 10 years, the technolgy of life simulations games will really excell. I can’t wait!
no more poseballs! or lag!

What are other peoples views on their addiction to Second L

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Easy points! lol!

Anyway mine is definitely weird, I have a shopping addiction for undergarments! I have 50 pairs of undies, almost all from Victoria’s Secret, and 30 bra’s, 9 corsets, and 25 garters. hahahaha

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ok.. soo i know i have a problem but not serious enough to be sent away for.

first off im gunna say DONT judge me and DONT question

just answer

my problem is that i have to be thin to be happy
i am a tall girl and for me its all about #s when it comes to being thin
so for me to weigh 100 is disgusting even 110 is gross to most people but if i was shorter i could weigh that

soo i like weighig around 110 or so to feel good about myself u know but my mom lately has been angry with me

she says if i dont gain weight she will send me to rehab for eating disorders or institutionalize me for being unbalanced

i am not lying when i say this i am NORMAL . i am an average teenage girl
the only different slightly weird thing about me is THAT i am thin and i dont starve myself or workout or throw up i just eat 2000 calories a day and weigh myself so i like how i look

please tell me how to get past this and help my mom see eye to eye without making her more angry

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I had a large ‘peach sized’ menigomia removed from my right frontal lobe about five years ago. It left me with my left side paralyzed. I had to go to in house rehab to re learn how to walk, eat, dress myself, etc. I did well, and am doing most everything my left side should do again, although a bit weak and shaky.
Problem is the tumor damaged my mood and behavior sensors so I ended up not having the ability to know ahead of time how to control my anger, fits of crying, and all that goes along with mood and behavior. Once I am in the cycle of ‘non control’, I can’t stop it…it sort of runs it’s course. It terrible for those around me, and for me too, because I end up feeling like I have been hit by a truck.
Also, I never realized if your limbs are paralyzed, so are the internal organs on that side, so………..I wet myself without notice, and all kinds of not nice stuff happens.
I had seizures for three years after the surgery until massive doses of anti-seizure meds finally stopped the seizires. I have to be on them for the rest of my life. Reactions to some of those meds have left me in depression (have a psycharist now).
Am just hoping to find someone who had a similiar experience that I can talk to.
Everytime I look here on the net for any kind of support group, it always goes to cancerous tumors. I was lucky, I know, but would so much like to talk with someone who understands all the ups and downs of having had your head opened up and poked around in. It changes everything about who you were!

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When I first started smoking things were great. It felt good to smoke, all of my stress just went away as soon as I hit that high.
But then it ended up being an everyday thing….nothing happened at first things were still great and then out of nowhere this strange feeling hit me. I started noticing everything, judging people, judging myself, thinking more than I should be about things, and my biggest problem is that I am constantly thinking about when I get old, my biggest fear is getting old now.
Before I just didnt care about that kind of stuff.
So I decided to stop smoking to see if this was the cause, and it worked, I became my old self again.
But I just couldnt stay away from it, and those feelings came back.

And when Im smoking I have the wierdest thoughts. And thats why my friends love smoking with me. Its funny.

But I dont want to feel this way, I want to be normal.
I dont want to accept the fact that I have an addiction, I start having suicidal thoughts when i go a day without smoking.I dont have the money to go to a rehab center and I would never tell my parents or friends that im addicted to weed. My friends would laugh and my parents would be devastated.

Some things you might want to know:
Im 17
Im graduating this year.
Ive been smoking for 2 years.
But I first tried it 4 years ago.
The other drugs Ive done are cocaine, extasy, pills, and I drink.

I dont want people critisising me and telling me I am a child gone wrong and stuff like that…I already know , I just want to to know if anyone else feels this way. And maybe even give me some advice on how I can stop doing all of these things. Just dont think im a bad person cause im really not.

This may not make much sense because im high now.

Email me: vrod051691@yahoo.com
Myspace: /nessaoar
Or you can post on here.

I might not be on for a while so please be patient for me to reply.

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I’ve been a cutter for 6 years and still have cravings. I don’t know of anyone else who has delt with this addiction and has successfully figured out how to stop the cravings. I’ve taken medication that has reduced the cravings but never completlely go away. Has anyone figured out if the cravings ever even stop without medication?

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