Ever since I turned 21 a couple months ago I have been drinking a lot. It started with going out to the bar every weekend, then drinking a couple beers with dinner or while doing homework.

Now that I’m home for the holidays it’s been one big party after another. Yesterday I ended up being DD for my friends and had the worst craving to drink all night. It worried me that I wanted to be drunk so bad.

I looked up all of the symptoms for alcoholism and I don’t really fit most of them–I got all A’s this semester and hold down my job, I have good relationships with people, and I am not depressed in any way or trying to hide from anything. I don’t drink to the point of blacking out or not being able to walk, but til I’m just feeling drunk.

I’m going to be blunt here — I LOVE being drunk. I love feeling dizzy and goofy and all “warm and fuzzy” inside. I drink for no other reason than to achieve such a high. Plus, I love the taste of beer. The problem is, is I feel like I am wanting to be drunk more and more. Before, I had no problem with a night in minus alcohol. Now I always find myself incorporating a few beers into every activity. For example, watching tv seems so much more entertaining drunk, playing board games with my roommates is more fun after a few drinks…

Do I have a problem or am I just being the typical college 21 year old? It seems a lot of my friends are always drinking and they don’t think they have a problem…

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