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I started hanging out with this girl,who was a lesbian that i used to know and hung out together every evening ,then she spent the night a few times and we slept together”no sex causual petting though” .We would call each other every morning to tell each other good morning and have a great day,then after work we would talk then we would spend the evening doin what ever,having fun walking in the park ect. ect. then i fell in love ive told her my dark secrets and in turn some of her secrets I could tell her anything. I really miss her ! Shes locked up at this moment looking at prison maybe 3-5 for felony forgery.She got caught up with the wrong crowd an ex of mine who was strung out on meth and crack and i had just got the ex out of rehab 2 months ago. then everything went to hell!

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First off i want to thank anyone who reads this and gives me some advice. I’m having an extremely tough time with this, its starting to get the best of me and make me feel like i don’t even want to live anymore.
Anyways, my dad is really tough acting towards me by the way he talks to me and all that. He says all the time i need to be reminded of my F**K ups everyday and how i f**ked everything i’ve ever done up and that’s all i’m gonna continue to do. That i’m never gonna make anything out of myself. There’s so much more he says to me that really brings me down, but i don’t want to bore you all with all that, he just basically makes me feel like committing suicide about everyday.
Now with the big part….I am not afraid to admit i have a problem now. I became addicted to pain pills. I’m 26 now and i became addicted probably around the age of 20 or so. I really want to get help, i want to quit this for good and never look back at it. I’m so serious about quitting, its something i really want…But i dont know what to do. I have a friend who is 30 and he went thru the same thing i did with the addiction. He went to the Dr. a while back and got on suboxone and is now doing wonderful, he’s really came a long way with it. And that’s what i want to do, so last night i tried to talk to my dad and asked him to please have an open mind and not put me down and please just listen. Well i told him about my addiction and how bad i wanted help cause i wanted to quit and try to go back to the person i know i am that i once was before all this. And then he started saying i wasn’t nothing but a dopehead and all i want to do is go take a bunch of other pills to get off pills and get addicted to them. He said if i was a man that i could do it without the help, that all i might do is sweat a lil bit for a few days then i’ll be fine, that i’m just trying to get someone to feel sorry for me. See, my car is not working right now. So i don’t have a vehicle at the moment. He said too last night that i’m probably just doing this so he’ll fix my car because if i try to go get help then i’ll be whining about not having a car and not being able to go to the dr. He said too that all i’ll be doing then is trying to go out and hang out with my friends all the time when i need to be sitting my a** here and not leaving the house. He says me getting help is just money wasted, and that i’m just trying to get extra money out of him and just blow more of his money for nothing.

I just dont know what to do now. I want to stop all this sooo bad, i’m ready to quit all this, its gotten to the point where its tore me all to pieces. I’ve never wanted to stop something so bad in my life as i do this. But i dont know where to turn now because of the way he’s made me feel and the things he’s said to me. If i don’t get help i’m just gonna get worse and worse taking stuff. But i’m so serious about quitting now and never taking another one. Can anyone please give me some good advice on what to do and how to approach this? I feel so lost and lonely and like i have no where or no one to turn to. If i’m gonna beat this addiction, its gonna be hard to do alone. I’m obviously not gonna have his support. He just wants to keep putting me down and making me feel terrible all the time.
I dont think he would care at all, he offered to come in and sit down and talk to my dad about all this but i just know how my dad is…..I dont know how i’m gonna come up with the money either, the first office visit is $300…..I just wish i could get my dad to lay off me and quit talking to me like i’m some piece of s***. It honestly just hurts so bad, to have him do me this way.

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Mizzunderstood…isn’t everybody?
You down for me, and I’m down for you,
But yet, I know I got nobody

Nice, but no footprints on my face
Smart but cant prove it with my grades
Too dumb to acknowledge
Too content to be grateful

When will it stop
When can I lash back
My inner critic
Has me in a trap

Addiction of the body
Prison of the mind
Aint nothing better
But leaving the world behind

Chilling like it’s summer
The music loud, my windows dropped
What else makes me do nothing
With my thoughts unstopped

Too secret to be known
Too loud to be hidden
But nobody knows
The feeling of my guilt-ridden

Nobody is like me, or so I say
The feelings of mine, are one of a kind

I could put my feelings on display
Show the world, I really am OK
What good will that do?
My image shouldn’t come from you

Nobody likes me
I don’t give a da**
I’ll no longer care
If you give me gram

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What would you do to change the US prison systems. So many people talk down about places like Abu Ghraib, but many do not realize some of our prisons are about the same. Hives of gang activity, disease spreading, violence, murder, rape, and more. Best of all, the prison staff usually ignores what goes onm, because after all those criminals aren’t human, are they? Dehumanizing people because of one or two misdeeds is downright cruel.

Over 3% of the adult population is in prison, and the percent is rising. Over half of the released criminals are repeat offenders. Other than some social changes we need in society, how do you think we can stop this?

Here are some of my suggestions.

1. Stop punishing victimless crime. Don’t punish the alcoholic, punish the drunk who goes driving.
2. Allow criminals to return to society without a social stigma. They paid their debt.
3. Offer rehab programs instead of incarceration. Do you want to watch people sit in time out and fraternize with other criminals, or redeem them?
4. Stop with the death penalty. Either exile the worst offenders, or build a place where they can be housed for life outside of our society.
5. Give government jobs to criminals that caused damage so they can pay back the victims plus interest. They do no good to anyone rotting in a cell.
6. Do something about the current law system so justice isn’t always based on who has the best lawyer. Otherwise big businesses, politicians, and rich people will usually be above the law, and poorly represented people will always suffer the full slap of the long arm of the law.

*sigh* I only hope that one day the US Government will do something about this. I only wish I knew how to help…
Clar92 – Hmm, I was going to disagree, but then I checked my list here:

1. Roof over your head. Check.
2. Someone else paying for you. Check.
3. Place to sleep. Check.
4. Anal rape. Check.
5. New criminal skills. Check.
6. 3 square meals. Check.
7. Spit in your orange juice. Check.
8. Social stigma for life. Check.
9. Workout room. Check.
10. Fear of constant violence. Check.
11. Separated from friends and family. Check.
Suspendy A – Being a fan of MMA and combat sports, your gladiator comment caught my attention. However, it would have to be consensual. Since I don’t believe in the death penalty, I can’t support forced matches. However it would probably sell tons of tickets.

I reread your question and wonder, are you referring to the criminals in the government that force you to pay for felons because they can’t come up with a decent system, or the actual people in the jail?
Rachel – Good idea, unfortunately I think the criminals would set up camp over there, make some friends, exchange criminal secrets, and it would come back to haunt us.
sebacklash – I can see where you are coming from, but don’t you think it would be better to exile them than kill them. Sure dead people rarely commit crimes, but there is no redemption in killing, only possibly deterrence to other criminals.

So I think there should be a place where they are exiled to and can never escape, like an island in the pacific with no trees that an be used to build rafts. Or, if there is another country that will take our criminal, then they may have them. I just think that the biggest punishment should be kicking someone out of a society for breaking the ultimate rules.
Czar Walters, Child Saver! – Good call. Those people would have to worry about losing their job. I think the people in charge may conspire to keep the jails full to look tough on crime (too tough is more like it), and also to punish people that don’t conform.

I do understand that people’s jobs may be based on there being criminals, just as the military only has a purpose if there is a perceived threat. *cough* WMD *cough* Ok, we’ll raise your budget.

Who knows, maybe all of this chaos, dishonesty, and political fog is needed to keep things running smoothly. But I don’t buy it. I think it is being done for selfish reasons, and I don’t think we need to have 3% or more of adults behind bars for “social dissidence.”
whatshisname – Amen. I’m glad you haven’t let the system defeat you.
kgsgolf – Thanks for the response. Your ideas definitely make me think.

Unfortunately, in answer to your number 1, some people are jailed for drinking. Ridiculous I know. Here is a link:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Public_intoxication

If they are being “disorderly” I can see action being taken, but for merely being drunk?

With number 2, society does indeed help with the stigma, but many jobs won’t hire felons, people are required to be listed as a sex offender, etc. Society could choose to ignore these things, but still, the label sticks.

For #4, I meant the person can willingly go to another country if the country allows them. Otherwise, there would be a place like Australia once was, for lifelong exile. I wanted a place they can be away from our society, yet live how they want. Don’t want to live by our rules? Fine, they can live elsewhere.

By #5 I meant to say make them do dirty jobs that may normally not be done, like clean public areas more often, etc.
Archery Nut – As an officer, I’m sure you have a high regard for justice. You wouldn’t be good at your job if you didn’t. And also, your employment is based on the fact that there are criminals locked up, so I can understand your passion for keeping criminals from harming society, and making sure they pay for their crimes.

But what is wrong with giving them programs for addiction? Maybe if they got clean, they would contribute to society, instead of siphoning funding from their cell.

Since the government is incarcerating them, they are responsible for feeding them. I don’t think they need filet mingon, but we shouldn’t starve em.

I get what you’re saying about the prisoners. You can lead a horse to water… We can’t force people to rehabilitate. But at the same time, you talk about them wasting taxpayers money. Well they already ARE wasting money. That’s one of my main complaints. The current way isn’t working, evident with the swelling of jail populations, so we need a Plan B.

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My husband is a functional alcoholic. We have Known each other 15 years, married for half that time. We have 2 babies now, 21 and 18 months. Last night he passed out when he was supposed to be watching the toddler, I came in and the toddler was running around unsupervised, trying to pull down a hot crock pot off the counter. We have done this dance before, and as far as I am concerned this is his last chance to get help. He always says he can do it on his own, then goes back to his old ways. I feel trapped because I can’t raise my babies in this environment, but I can’t divorce him because I fear for the kids safety when they are in his custody for visitations. He has never been pulled over or put into jail (that I know of) so his alcoholism is based on my word alone. He hides it very well. If I give him an ultimatum, could it possibly drive him to get help? Or would it make things worse?
I am seeing a counselor, and she asks that I put this on the back burner for my own sake right now, and not make any big decisions for awhile. I have a lot going on adjusting to going back to work and all. But I feel so trapped and clueless about what I am supposed to do now.
He is not going to watch the kids unsupervised anymore, period. I have found some local Al-Anon meeting to try. Thanks for your suggestions.

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..teenage girl, roxanne (or something) goiing thru changes in her high school career. has really wealthy friends, one of them THERESA is a pretty bad egg. in 8th grade theresa was sent to a rehab facility centered on helping eating disorders and treating them. roxannes parents are pretty wealthy and well known and her mom wants her to go to the annual summer camp that roxanne always goes to and is a counselour at.. her mom tells her to invite theresa and her other friend mary kate. mary kate and theresa have other plans, however… sign up for camp, make parents pay all the money and instead go on a road trip for the time (month and a half). roxanne falls for it and ditches camp. theresa invites roxies b/f, and his two friends. ends up that theresa screws everyoneup and just wanted to meet up with her druggie anorexic hippie friends, and roxies b/f is a loser who screws with mary kate, etc.. its all like everyone has secrets and finding your true friends and religion in situations …
yeh, i’ve been wanting to write lately and thought of screen writing, but like novels better. srry if the idea or plot isn’t clear…it may sound really awkward and weird, but i’ve really got some cool endings thought of and things like that. plus i only had a paragraph or so to describe, so yehh srry.
it sounds typical also but the characters are really taking a long time to sort out and i think its differnt than most stories like this b/c its psychological in some ways… we find out more about the characters as the story goes on, what motivates them, and some have hidden identities as well as a strong case of split personality. it gets good
first of all they’re not eight graders!… thats when one went to rehab. i didnt mean to make the anorexics on drug a stereotype, its just who they are. the main characters are going to be Juniors in high school. neways, thanks for telling me. i’ve been thinking about writing things other than “kid” stories, but this IS my first time writing a really big thing, and it is difficult at first…

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I have always lived in a family of smokers. My mother and father have smoked for over 30 years. I have friends who have smoked for years, and who claim that they can not stop due to nicotine “addiction.” I decided to perform an experiment so that I could put myself in their shoes and finally give me right to criticize their unhealthy habit. I decided to over a 1-month period build up my tolerance to nicotine to the equivalent of 2 packs / day using Nicotine Polacrilex gum. I began with the 4 mg gum, building up my tolerance to 10 pieces / day = 40 mg nicotine which is over the equivalent nicotine of 40 cigarettes. I build up to 10 pieces within 2 weeks, and continued to chew 10 pieces / day for 2 weeks. At the end of the 1-month period, I was going to stop cold turkey. I was returning home for christmas break, and left my nicotine at college. There was no way that I would have gotten away with sneaking to the local CVS in order to purchase more gum, even if I wanted to, so I knew I would not fail. The half-life of nicotine is very short, so the physical addiction is gone within a few days. Therefore, I knew I was going to be in for a bumpy ride.

However, it was nothing like I expected it to be. Yes – I felt the urge to chew more gum, and noticed myself feeling groggy, and a little more easily agitated, but I still was able to act like my normal self. By the third day of no nicotine, I had no desire to continue chewing the gum. Yes, I enjoyed it thoroughly, and would chew more if given the opportunity, but I really didn’t feel an uncontrollable desire to chew more gum. My parents act as though they will go insane without their next cigarette when they get that urge, and refuse to do anything other than smoke when the urge comes around. Therefore, I think that I am living proof that cigarettes aren’t that addictive. There is no use in smoking cigarettes… in fact, the gum is even more pleasurable than smoking a cigar (which I have smoke about 5 in my lifetime) I have never smoked a cigarette and never will. Currently I have bought another pack of 4 mg gum and chew a piece or two a day, sometimes not. Yesterday, I didn’t chew a piece at all, and I haven’t yet today. Tonight, I might, because it is an enjoyable drug… However, as far as I am concerned the physical addiction is bull. Sure, the habit might contribute to the inability to quit, but as far as I am concerned, one’s health is more important. This goes out to all smokers –> stop chewing, pick up some gum, and enjoy. :D

My question to those of you out there, is has anyone else performed this type of experiment, and if so? what were the results? Also, can you smokers out there give me more input as to why you don’t stop smoking and sacrifice your health for cheap pleasure, which actually can be obtained from buying the gum, and getting a nice nicotine buzz. 4 mg CVS brand nicotine citrus gum is awesome. It tastes good, and you get a gooooood buzz. (probably the equivalent of about 5 cigarettes at once.

Give me your opinions / suggestions, etc?
Then what do you all claim the real reason you keep smoking is?

Is it the habit, because the addiction doesn’t seem that bad to me… Is it a social thing, or what?

I mean, smoking a cigar does help relieve stress. I’m sure cigarettes do the same for you all, but I prefer the gum to cigars anyways…. What’s the addiction all about?

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POEM:

Mizzunderstood…isn’t everybody?
You down for me, and I’m down for you,
But yet, I know I got nobody

Nice, but no footprints on my face
Smart but cant prove it with my grades
Too dumb to acknowledge
Too content to be grateful

When will it stop
When can I lash back
My inner critic
Has me in a trap

Addiction of the body
Prison of the mind
Aint nothing better
But leaving the world behind

Chilling like it’s summer
The music loud, my windows dropped
What else makes me do nothing
With my thoughts unstopped

Too secret to be known
Too loud to be hidden
But nobody knows
The feeling of my guilt-ridden

Nobody is like me, or so I say
The feelings of mine, are one of a kind

I could put my feelings on display
Show the world, I really am OK
What good will that do?
My image shouldn’t come from you

Nobody likes me
I don’t give a da**
I’ll no longer care
If you give me gram
aww thank you, you are all very sweet :]

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I know about seeing eye dogs for the blind, but what about for the mentally ill? i know someone who is pretty much homeless, self medicates with illegal drugs, & dignosed 4 months ago with major depressive disorder.she has no family or friends except me, and her little dog.she has begun getting help. but wont go in rehab because she has no one to care for her dog. this dog is her life. she would die without the dog.so could this dog become her service animal? and would she be able to take it to a rehab with her. she is from the dallas, tx area if anyone knows the answers for this area.

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I am doing a photography project for fun, and I need some ideas. The theme I am doing is “We all have our
problems”. So far I have “Person doing coke” like sniffing coke, “Cutter” like slitting the wrist,
and “pills” like taking to many. I need more ides though so please help what are some of your problems
or friends problems.

I also have answers from Mikayla, Courtney, Janelle R, Manuel U:
- Eating Disorders.(Not only not eating enough, but even eating too much)
- Self mutilation
- Hording
- Spending to much money
- Being vain
- Pyromaniac
- Alcoholism
- poverty
- heartbreaks
- teenage pregnancy
- loneliness
- being posers(hiding behind the mask of someone you aren’t)
- work problems (getting fired by your boss or late night shifts which lead to insomnia)
- Homeless

Can you think of more, this is going to be a big series

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